Friday, August 14, 2009

Heaven is the Face of My Little Girl

Today is the day our baby girl was due to come into this world, the day we would be kissing her, holding her, loving her, looking into her eyes for the first time. One of the things Mark regretted was not getting to see her eyes. Eyes are a window to the soul, and when each of our boys was born, a special bond was cemented for eternity as soon as they looked into their daddy’s eyes. Today all we can do is guess at what that moment would have been like, and long for the day we will gaze on Eliana for the first time, eye to eye, face to face, soul to soul.

Last night Mark and I went to an incredible concert with Jeremy Camp and Steven Curtis Chapman. It was so meaningful to hear SCC open up about the loss of his daughter Maria. It is heart-breaking, but healing at the same time when you hear someone speak out loud the same pain you feel within your own heart. He sang the new single “Heaven is the Face" from his album Beauty Will Rise that comes out this November. This song is so beautiful, and captures perfectly what I am feeling today. Here is a live performance on You Tube:

Heaven is the Face

Heaven is the face of a little girl
With dark brown eyes
That disappear when she smiles.
Heaven is the place
Where she calls my name
Says, “Daddy please come play with me for awhile.”


God, I know, it’s all of this and so much more,
But God, You know, that this is what I’m aching for.
God, you know, I just can’t see beyond the door.
So right now...

Heaven is the sound of her breathing deep,
Lying on my chest, falling fast asleep while I sing.
And Heaven is the weight of her in my arms,
Being there to keep her safe from harm while she dreams

And God, I know, it’s all of this and so much more,
But God, You know, that this is what I’m longing for
God, you know, I just can’t see beyond the door.


But in my mind’s eye I can see a place
Where Your glory fills every empty space.
All the cancer is gone,
Every mouth is fed,
And there’s no one left in the orphans’ bed.
Every lonely heart finds their one true love,
And there’s no more goodbye,
And no more not enough,
And there’s no more enemy (no more).

Heaven is a sweet, maple syrup kiss
And a thousand other little things I miss with her gone.
Heaven is the place where she takes my hand
And leads me to You,
And we both run into Your arms.

Oh God, I know, it’s so much more than I can dream.
It’s far beyond anything I can conceive.
So God, You know, I’m trusting You until I see
Heaven in the face of my little girl,
Heaven in the face of my little girl.

Eliana, we are longing for the day.

1 comment:

  1. Wow, that's a beautiful song. Your writing about Eliana is beautiful, too. I'm thinking of Eliana and all of you this week and especially today.