Friday, July 17, 2009
Walking With You: Naming our Babies
Walking With You was created to help support those who have lost a child. Together we share our stories, helpful information, scriptures, encouraging words, prayer requests, and more. Thank you to those of you who have joined us for the past few weeks...for courageously sharing your stories. If you haven't joined us yet, and would like to, you are more than welcome.
I am excited to be joining Walking with You, and feel like I am taking the lazy way out for this first one, because I am going to copy and paste my post from last month on the subject. This just seems like a perfect time for me to join in because Eliana's name is so precious to me, and has been a comfort, and part of God's amazing grace and all-surpassing peace along this journey. Here is that story:
I believe God gave me her name years before her life began, because he knew what the future would hold, and He wanted to comfort me by helping me cling to the truth that He does fulfill His promises. Now I understand this better than ever before. I have experienced first hand the reality that He will never leave us or forsake us.
When I first found out I would have to deliver Eliana without getting to hear her cry, besides being devistated, I was so scared. I'm sure many can relate to these feelings of not having the emotional strength to even face what was going to happen. I couldn't even imagine myself actually giving birth and seeing my lifeless child, and I wished that somehow I could just dissapear without having to bear it.
As time passed and the moment drew near, it was beautiful beyond words the way that God stepped in, and filled me with His Holy Spirit. He says I can do all things through His strength, and he literally poured His supernatural strength into my body and spirit that night. He promises peace beyond understanding, and it was the most inexplicable, deep feeling of complete peace that I have ever felt. Satan would have us doubt God in experiences like this, but instead He has made Himself more real to me than ever before. He is so good, so pure, so holy, so loving, and when we cannot stand, He literally carries us; mind, body, and spirit.
Although we had chosen the name Eliana years before, during this pregnancy we hadn't completely settled on it yet. When it came time to decide her name, my husband and I both looked at each other and knew, her name is Eliana Grace. God has answered, with His Grace.